8. Lost, Broken & Bruised

 L ost in the world
 O f misery,
 S he was overwhelmed by
 T he impossibilites

 B e strong, she
 R epeatedly chanted as though a mantra yet the
 O pposite she is and she
 K nows that she hates
 E very bit of herself when things were
 N o longer in her control

 A nd she swore by her
 N ame that this would be the last
 D estruction

 B ut exactly how much time
 R an yet she still stayed,
 U nmovable?
 I t was uncomprehensible ---
 S he and her strength and the title
 E veryone honours her
 D iffer

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🖋For every title everyone gave me yet I was not as it is ; For all the times I wished I was stronger ; For every mistake I made

7. Innocent Child

Introverted and shy,
He never speaks his mind
Knowing only to act like a hedgehog---
His fear and worries hidden
Behind anger, much like me

Too much similarities,
Must be the genes

Acting tough and strong
Bearing the weight alone
How many nights gone
His heart heavy as stone?

My heart aches to its core
As I watch him fights his silent war
He is merely a child
So how can he not be wild?

Expectations after expectations
Stern stares observes his actions
Behave, behave and behave
That was all he was told
Who ever sees deep into his soul?

In the day he push me away
At night however, he let me cuddle him my way
Though at times I let him down
He knows my love for him never dulls

Blames, accusion and scorns
Directed to an innocent child
Shield, protect and power
I swore upon myself, riled

Just what does it takes for him to be happy and free?

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🖋For everything I had but you did not ; For all the times I can only watch on as you struggle ; For the only innocent child I wanted so much to protect

💬I know that everything is just so tough. But tough times produces tough people. May your future be bright and happiness be its color.

6. Weakling

   His loneliness grew
   Somewhere deep down she knew
   Yet she did nothing, but prayed that it would be better
   And he played strong, pretending like it really doesn't matter

   How many nights did he went through
   Unable to pacify the rough,
   Cold, wounded heart?
   As if the loneliness was not enough
   Sadness started to pave its path

   With his stubborn nature,
   He kept silent while watching his heart tear ---
   Its sound intensifying in his ear
   While she pretended not to hear

   Her nonchalance killed him inside
   But he was unaware of the fact that
   In her heart, guilt reside
   Was it really a surprise, that?

   In the end perhaps they were right
   That she is only capable of loving herself
   Much more than she can, any one else

   Yet no one really understood
   The weight she always felt

   Being misunderstood

   She was only human
   Though the only man
   She loves the most is herself
   Her love for him is true
   Never faltering, even if her actions does not exactly prove

   She was only confused
   On how to act like her feelings
   Which honestly, only makes her the weakling

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🖋For my sweet little brother whom I failed so badly ; For all the things I should have been, yet I am not ; For the weakling I am, I despise you so damn much.

💬I am sincerely so sorry for my incapbility and the weakling I am. Trust me when I say that guilt have never left me alone even for a moment whenever I look at him and when he cross my mind. I am really terribly sorry. Please believe in my love, though. I swear I love you like no other, a lot more than anyone could ever imagin and my actions show. I am so so terribly sorry. All I ask for is that in the future, you'll be happily carefree.

Completed: 5 April 2017

Edited: 6 April 2017