Saturday, 18 June 2016

5. 190616 How 13 Seconds Of Autograph Session Felt Like

Crowds are not really her type of things. Having to squeeze with hundreds of people made her sweat a lot more than she usually do. It was all a little unbelievable to her that she actually stood three hours in heels, buried in the crowd still tip toe-ing . She heard mumurs about how impressive the action was as the bystanders stared at her shoes. Her patience is ticking away with each second pass. Eight more. Five more. Two. Her heart suddenly started to beat faster and she tried to practice the lines she had been practicing the night before but no, she could no longer focus. And finally it was her turn. She felt her legs wobble for a little as she took strides towards the man who inspired her in many ways and grew up with her. She first heard of him when she was at the pure and innocent age of 12 and fell in love with his voice before she discovered more of him and fell in love with his personality too. He went missing for awhile in the industry when puberty hit to get accustomed with his new voice. And five years later, he made his comeback. As though a butterfly that just emerged from its lava state, he was a brand new person. He, who used to have a voice of a high octave now have a voice of an extremely low octave. However the greatest change was on his personality. He who used to be that sweet little innnocent boy now started cursing not only in his songs but in his speech too, though he was still as sweet as before. She felt a kind of connection between them as she too, became someone quite vulgar from someone with really good manners. It was that heart with a streak of rebellion yet controlled by the mind of sensibility that caused that sense of special correspondence.

And finally, it was her turn.

Never had she heard her heart beat any faster than it did or had she felt her blood rushing at such incredible speed. Her legs were a little wobbly as she made her way to that one man whose voice and face waved every single of her problems away. He shook the pen in his hands, trying to get the ink work. After some effort, he looked up with his dazzling smile before signing the tote bag. She braced herself to speak the same words as she practiced. She slowly yet surely opened her mouth,

“How was your day?” His voice broke the silence between them. She blinked. Once, then twice. That got her really off guard.

“Uh, it was good, thank you.” She smiled awkwardly, feeling very nervous. After squeezing out the replies from her thumping heart, she braced herself to say the words yet again.

“How was the show? Did you enjoy yourself tonight?” Again, he took the first shot in questioning her.

“Yeah. It was awesome.” She fidgeted, now a little deflated at how she could not manage to get the words out. She then decided it was now or never. “I know you heard many 'I love you's, but-”

“Me too.” He grinned, and she was caught off guard before realizing that he misheard her. She then began to run the another half of the sentence in her head, hoping to get it out. He took a quick glance at her face that was deep in thoughts, and attacked her hand resting on the table – clasping his own hands around it. To say that she was shocked was an understatement. The blood that was flowing in her so furiously previously suddenly went still. Her noisy mind that was replaying the lines she practiced yesterday night suddenly fell into silence. The only thing that she was aware of was the feeling of his hand holding hers. So she did the most natural thing – closed her hands with his. He gazed at her, enjoying the moment though she shy away, not too sure on how to react as everything threw her off her expectations. He then decided to pull away, however she grabbed his hand with her might. This time round, it was him that have eyes as big as saucers and he gaped at her for a moment. His gaze softened, however, as he realize that she was mustering her courage to speak her mind. He then gave her hand a squeeze, urging her to continue.

“I just want to thank you for all the soul touching music you've made,” she mentally slapped herself for using the wrong vocabulary before realizing how much her voice shook and she pondered awhile about the expression on her face. She nervously waited for his response.

He had his brows furrowed before leaning back, his mouth forming an 'O' shape.

“Oh, thank you so much.” His expression speak of nothing but how touched he was at her words. “Please take care, I love you.” And he gave a final squeeze of her hand before she nodded and left, too overwhelmed to say anything more. His gentle voice and that pair of sincere eyes, however, hung around in her mind 'til late night.

And this, will be one of the memory she'll remember forever.


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